Something Different

As quoted from the words of King Solomon in the book of Ecclesiastes,

“Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the teacher.

“Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless”

looking from his point of view he really sounded like he has really given up on life. He was a man that God had really bless and gave him everything that a man can wish for. He had money, fame, reputation, women, slaves. He had practically everything that a man could ever want. He even tested the pleasures of life to find out what is good.

Looking at Ecclesiastes 2

We can see that he listed one by one what can fulfill a man’s pleasure.

Laughter, wine and folly,he build houses and vineyards, gardens and parks, and everything that could be pleasing to him

He denied himself nothing but his eyes desired. To have everything in the world possible at that time, he had it. But he came to conclusion after doing all that he had done, he said that ” everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind, nothing was gained under the sun.

King Solomon hated life because of all of it, he work hard to achieve all that he can achieve but he realised in the end he will still have to leave the world and leave all his riches and achievements to the person after him.

So why should you work hard as everything will still be left behind when you die.

As i was looking at some old pictures of people who were in the MYF long before i got the chance to step in and join it. I remember that i was very fortunate to have known a lot of them because of my parents who were the counsellors before. As i look back, i can remember 2 particular person’s that had made a big impact on my life.

One of them was person who was a very outgoing person and would start conversations anywhere and everywhere. He was a person who would spend time with me when i was young, teach me the game of  basketball and would always impart thoughts and advice for me. It was a great joy following him around and mixing with people that were so much older than me. Eventhough he is now very much older than before and married, i will always remember him as an older brother and friend to me which has thought me a lot to become who i am today.

Another person who has impacted my life is a person who is much different from the 1st one in the sense that he is a person who is very concern and caring towards others. I remember very clearly that he would always ask me how i am and how is life when he came back for his study breaks.He will also always try and spread the gospel around to others no matter who that person was. It was always good to sit down and talk with him after a game of basketball. He would always encourage me and teach me new things about life. But the sad thing is he pass away a few years back in an accident and the news came to me as a shock. I actually could not believe what happen as i saw him only a few months back before the day the accident happen and until now i regretted not being there for his funeral to pay my last respects to him, as he had done so much for me.

As i sit here reflecting back on my life right now, I am thankful to God that he put this two person’s in my life to help me become who i am and eventhough they may think that their contributions are a small thing. To me it meant the world and by looking at the way they had live their lives, i will strive to be like them. I would have wanted one of them to be my mentor, to guide me and help me in my walk right now.

I really miss both of them. May God continue to bless you and to you who has gone ahead of me, will be waiting for the time when i’ll go and see you up there and thank you so much for your concern and just being a friend to me.

As i look out the balcony, i see things that will not change like the trees blown by the wind, buildings that are there, birds flying in the air and a lot of other things. These things are immune to change because they will still be there even after the wear and tear has happen. Maybe the trees will be chop down or the birds flew some where else but i will still be here thinking why change is necessary in life so that the true meaning of life can be found.

It can be said that life is studying hard at your first 20 to 25 years of your life and get a degree or masters and go on to the work force and start working. After working for a while, you will tend to start a family and go on with life until you retire around 50 plus. Then its retirement time where you sit back and enjoy yourself where your kids are all grown up and need not worry about them. Is this the life that everyone will live by.

To come to think of it, its a very rigid and there is no life to it at all. I do not want a life like that, which is so predictable and boring if i must say but on the other hand this kind of life has certainty and is much less changes that will happen. So it can be said i am standing at a crossroad, still deciding which way to go and still waiting for God to show me what is the purpose of my life.

I feel that God wants to use me in a lot of ways but for now i feel stuck and dry and wanting more from God. Serving in church encourages me a bit but i want more. Maybe God wants me to be patient and wait on God to show me. I do not want an ordinary life but a life that is filled with God’s plans and promises.

Selfish is a word that someone has describe of me recently. I did not know how to respond to that person but i did not deny the word that has been place on me because i know that each and every person on this planet has or have been selfish. I too have been selfish for certain reasons and i am not proud of it.

The main problem of being selfish is by not realising that you are being selfish. You go on with your lifes and not realise that you are making a mistake of being selfish. After a while, the problem gets bigger and bigger until a point where you suddenly realise it but it is too late to change any of it. What bugs me the most is that this problem is  you do not realise it is a problem until it becomes too big to contain and when you finally realise the problem, you can’t do anything to mend it back. Then after a while, it becomes guilt where you feel an enormous feeling of guilt and regret that you will carry it with you.

Telling the truth, all of this sucks big time and the people who did not tell you that you were being selfish or making a big mistake does not help either. Usually, this kind of people just stay away and just go on with their lifes and not bother. They will just say that it is not their problem, so why stick their heads into it.

Don’t people realise that just by telling the person that he is making a mistake of being selfish is actually a lot of help to that person. Its because we as humans usually do not sit down and evaluate their words and actions they have done, so its good if someone comes along and points out the mistakes made so that particular person need not suffer so much. Even if that person does not want the advice or just hurt you back, you need not be hurt by it because that person will realise in time what you have actually done for them.

I understand that it can be really hard to go up to a person and just tell straight to the face that person faults and failures but i feel we have to try and do that because it helps us realise our mistakes and learn from them to be a better person. If everyone just remains the way they are and just be comfortable with their lives, you are all just being SELFISH!!

Can it be that in life people will not judge you?

Can it be that in life people will not disappoint you?

Can it be that in life people will see you for who you are?

Can it be that in life people will truly understand you?

Can it be that in life people will be concern and compassionate of you?

Can it be that in life people will always be there for you?

Think about this things…but to me if it all were true, i believe i’ll be still dreaming.

What is TRUST? I know the question sounds weird but when you come to think of it, what is it actually? Can you live in this world without it or does the world just stop right at it’s tracks because of the lack of it. I believe that it is a very big word and with it comes a very big meaning of it.

What is it actually? By normal definition it means to have a belief or confidence in the honesty, goodness, safety of a person or thing. So it basically means that when you trust some one is to put your belief and confidence in him that he would not fail you or disappoint you but why do i have the feeling in life there are bound to be disappointment and broken hearts because the circle of trust is broken no matter it is for a good or bad cause. It’s bound to hurt and things would not be as it was before and that would be the worst part. Life should not be live with regrets because of the mistakes made in the past but to try and overlook it and start over again no matter how deep the disappointment because you cannot turn back time to mend the things that have been broken.

I know some people may disagree with me but my point of view is that close friends are very important and somehow i believe God puts them in our lives to help us live a good life and also to help us when we fall. They will be there for you no matter what and to be piss with them until the extend of losing your friendship is so not worth it. You have to look at the times that both of you have gone through and the up’s and down’s that have been faced. It will be a shame to lose al of it just because of the problem of trust.

Sometimes being truthful and trustworthy is a daunting task that is just too hard to pull of and many times we as humans fail to do just that but trust is a very important thing because you have to earn it. It is not free that will just come to you when you meet a new person or with your existing friends. Trust has to be constantly work at so that it will grow stronger and by that your bond with that particular person grows stronger as well and..

when i say that the trust has a big meaning, it also comes with a big responsibility with it. It cannot be played around as though it was a game and you strive to win it at whatever cost even you would have to betray somebody’s trust and when you have betrayed somebody who trust you, to earn it back would be very hard.

I ask one day if i would be betrayed by my close friends, what would my reaction be? Would i immediately retaliate and cut of the relationship as most would do or would i take time and forgive the person. But we all know that once something like this happens, there is almost no percentage that you can become the friends before the problems occurred. Would it be too hard to forgive and forget like Jesus instructed us to do? It can be compared to what Jesus said that we should love our enemies.

To think as a reasonable sane man, the thought of loving your enemy is a stupid thing to do. Even worse is that person plans to kill you or ruin your life for good. How would you be able love them, even more accept them. I wonder what was Jesus thinking when he came out with the words love your enemies but looking at this we know that God’s ways are higher than us and we may never understand God.

To me if i have gain your trust in me i will keep it as though keeping a treasure cause your friendship is like a treasure to me and to lose it will be a heart break for me cause you all are important to me and the friendships may be lost forever. stand by each other and watch out for each other backs and you’ll be alright.

Why do some people always put themselves 1st before everything else and want things their way and do not listen to other peoples input on thing. On top of that, they do not even think about the decision that they make will affect the people around them greatly and it will make life so much harder for some just because you want it your way. It is frustrating to talk to somebody like that and even more when they want your advice, when you give it to them it goes into one ear and flies out from the other. After a while you tend to give up and let things just be as it is. No point wasting all your energy telling the person what to do cause its their life and by stepping into it, you may be put to blame when things don’t turn out right. Things gets worse when this kind of people are people who are close to you and it is even harder to tell them something without them feeling offended by it. Sometimes i really feel that to lose a friend like this is so much easier and the burden may be lifted of my shoulders. There is not much for me too lose but more things to be gain from it.

I have learn that in life there is so much to learn, see and share with one another. To look at things at a different perspective and to let God inspire you day by day. Although many times I may stumble and fail, i’ve still relied on God to pick me up and help me continue with my walk with him. In many ways  looking at things at a different prespective or waiting for God to inspire, does not happen everyday and some days it may be really dry and you wonder where God is and really hope he is beside you and just to whisper some words of encouragement for you to go on in life what a joy that will bring.

I was listening to a sermon by Louie Giglio and he was talking about the difference between knowing Jesus and having an encounter with him. The interesting part is that he used a very unique illustration to show the meaning of it. He talk about the Krispy Kreme doughnut and as he was describing everything about the doughnut and even brought out a dozen of it in a box to show everyone. the climax of it came when he said that the Krispy Kreme doughnut exsist not because of the people know a lot about the doughnut but it exsist solely for the people to put it in their mouths and to savour the taste of it. In the same way Jesus came into this world to save us from our sins and death. For us to know all about his miracles and his works are purely information and there is no relationship with him. He want to have an encounter with you to make himself real to you not just by you knowing everything there is to know about Him.

I’m hoping for more from God to reveal himself. Oh God keep me from evil and focus my eyes on you and you alone. This is my prayer.

I guess in life there is a first for everything and i think blogging is one of them but i feel that i’ll use it to pen down my thoughts, feelings and what i have learn day by day. Everyday, there is always something to look forward to and to realize little things that i sometimes take for granted or that i have missed or just come to realize. So this blog is meant for putting my thoughts to words so that i may reflect back on what i have gone through and if anyone comes across this and feel that you have been bless, i’ll be really glad cause someone as insiqnificant as me could have help you or encourage you by one way or another. Truly, i do not have the flair in writing but i’ll take it as a challenge and to improve myself.